its a week today since i had my 15y old golden retriever pts, its been the longest week ever. the house is so empty, i miss the creaking of her basket when she got in and out, i miss the sound of her coming up the stairs in the morning to see me. theres noone to eat the apple cores or lick out the yogurt pot when its empty. shes not there when i open the fridge waiting for a carrot.  i thought maybe when i paid that final vets bill it would bring some closure but no it just made me cry all over again. when everyone goes out it really is just me alone in the house and nothing, its awful. i miss stroking her, talking to her i really hate this i cant even look at pictures of her.  people say she was old, she had a good life and they are right but i still want her back, i never imagined in my wildest dreams that it would be this bad.

hugs and prayers through this difficult time.

I'm so sorry for your loss.  You will feel better but it will take a while, I am sitting here crying my eyes out after reading your post, I lost my Abby, also a Golden Retriever on 25/5/07 she was nearly 14.  I've just re-read my post when I lost her - shouldn't have done that!!  I can honestly say I still miss her dreadfully but the memories tend to make me laugh and smile now with the occassional tears!  I know what you mean about the house being empty without them, I have three other dogs, but it's still empty without Abby.  Time is a great healer and I'm sure you will start to feel a bit better soon, however I found that every now and again I just burst into tears, a song on the radio or just a memory would set me off and still does!

Run free at the bridge Abby - go find my girl!

Jan

i'm so very sorry for your loss. i promise you'll get there though {{{hugs}}}

im so sorry to hear of your loss. thoughts are with you

I had to put my 14 year old, beautiful girl Madi, to sleep just over two weeks ago and know exactly how raw the pain feels right now.  Paying the vet bill and picking up the ashes doesn't bring closure.  I miss scrunching the fur around her ears and neck, and telling her how beautiful she is.  I miss her banging her bowl when she enjoyed her dinner so much she would lick the bowl clean of every last drop of food.  I miss seeing her face when I walk in the door, looking up at me with the softest brown eyes and the happiest tail.  I miss so much about her, every minute of my day.  When I come home from work I miss taking her out for her walk, the thing she lived for in her last days.  I still can't believe she is no longer with me and I have cried so many tears for the loss of my best friend.

I can't say that this will ever go away but it does ease.  I have a picture of her on my fridge and every night I rest my ahead against it, like I used to rest my head on hers when she was with me.  Every night I cry when I do it and tell her I love her.  It isn't the same but it brings me some comfort that I can still say those things to her.  I swear I saw her the other day, standing with my dad and my brother who I have lost too, all three together looking so well and happy.  It made my heart want to burst with warmth and sadness, knowing they were together and will be waiting for me one day. 

I am so sorry for your loss and the pain you are going through right now.  I never imagined it would be so bad either, I truly felt like my heart had broken and I couldn't bear to take the pain, but I did somehow.  I had a week off work and managed to go back, despite just wanting to curl up in bed and not face the word.

Time will ease it but you will always want her back, you will always miss her.  My pain is still so raw but I know I am moving through it day by day.

I contacted Blue Cross www.bluecross.org.uk , they offer a free pet bereavement service either by phone or email.  I emailed them and just poured my heart out.  Within 24 hours they emailed back.  I poured my heart out again.  The person emailing has been through the loss too and understands how we all feel.  It is kind of therapeutic to tell a stranger how you are feeling as there is no judgement, no opinion, no fear.  Most of all you can say what you want and sob whilst you are writing it. 

Thinking of you right now  {{hugs}}

Julie

Hi kaz47,

i am sorry to hear of your loss, a tear rolled down my face as soon as i read your post as i have recently lost my Abbey, only my girl was a baby of 13 months, so i really do know how painful it is, but rest assured you gave your girl a peaceful goodbye and of that you should be proud of yourself.
I cant say the same for me as i made the decision to end a babies life but losing them is always painful no matter what, my girl is on rainbow bridge too.

The pain will ease with time but how much time needed is a very personal thing, i hope you can remember all your happy years together, i know i would have given the world to have had even a quarter of them years with my baby.

She will stay in your heart and one day i pray we will all get to have those special cuddles with our babies once again

Take Care
Mandy

I'm so sorry to hear about your golden girl, it doesn't matter how old they are, young or old it still hurts like mad when they leave us.  It is only natural for you to feel like this,  it is early days yet so please don't be hard on yourslelf, cry when you need to, and talk about your girl when you want to, you need time to grieve, she was a huge part of your life, you loved her and it is normal to miss her so much.  She will be running free at the bridge in no pain looking down on you and thanking you for the wonderful life you gave her

She will always hold a very special place in your heart, and the pain will ease in time, I don't know how long it will take as everyone is so different, but eventually you will have days when you actually smile and don't feel sad for a few moments and then the moments increase and you will start to remember the good times and smile and laugh about all the funny little things she did.

Sending you hugs xxx

Run free at the bridge sweetheart xxx

my thoughts are with you all at this sad time.
xx

The pain will ease with time.....
Sorry for your loss x