its hard for me to believe that it is a year today since i made the heart broken decision to have me darling tucker put to sleep, for those that remember will know the pain i felt at his loss.......
the few weeks before we had tucker put to sleep due to a sudden illness saw him have tests & medication's to try & discover a reason or what his illness was but after just under 4 weeks & losing 9kg in that time vets were almost sure it was lymphosarcoma so a decision was made to free my boy from pain so called the vet to the house.....
http://www.in-memory-of-pets.com/personaltribute.php?ID=70440

i still miss tucker with all my heart, i can count on 1 hand the number of times i have been in the show ring with a dog since, i can't get my head round it & showing is now done by our daughter aged 6 & my partner, tucker was my dog in a million, they say everyone has 1 & he was mine... i just guess no-dog will ever fill the place in my heart tucker has left.....

i did buy in 3 puppies last summer but have since let 2 go.....no relation to tucker...we did intend to show these but i was wrong so decided to find them a lovely pet home of where they now live & are very spoilt

i do attend dog shows but can't take a dog into the ring, i have suffered severe depression & terrible panic attacks over the last year of which i take medication to help deal with...
is it normal to feel the way i do since his loss.... people say go get a life it was only a dog..... no-one truely understands apart from us dog lovers thats the reason for my long post... i know i can relate to you people as sometime in our life we will all have to say goodbye to a beloved pet ...

my tucker is in heaven at a place called rainbow bridge
a lovely place but now at peace & free from all his pain
his star shines down upon us & twinkles in the night
oh how i wish that he was here to take away my pain

dear lord look after tucker & guide him all the way
i'm sure he will tell you lots of stories every day
i miss my tucker dearly & i'm sure you will agree
that some day in the future we will be unite again.

missing you tons tucker, remembering you with all my broken heart, i try to think of the great times we had & that keeps me going... all the highs & lows we went through together.... a true gentleman of a dog that no-other dog will ever replace....   rip my man....love you  my shining star in heaven above.....

Oh I remember your posts very well about Tucker. 

Springers leave pawprints all through your heart.  I am still grieving over the loss of mine.  They never leave you. 

People that say that a dog is just a dog, dont know the true love, and devotion our 4 legged friends give us.  Loosing them is loosing a family member.  People who say "Just get over it" or "Still sad about him/her" dont know the true bond a person can have with their pets.  Ignore them, and cherish the relationship, friendship, you had with Tucker.  Everyone grieves differently, and there are no set rules or time lines to grieving.  You need to go through things at your pace, not on someone elses. 

Take care, hun.  Thinking of you.  Hopefully Joy and Tucker are playing at the bridge. 

(((((((hugs)))))))

Kory

thinking of you today.
xxxx

Sorry to hear of your sad loss. A friend found talking thru her feelings with a pet bereavement counsellor helped a lot. The link below has info.
((hugs)) Angela

http://www.bluecross.org.uk/web/site/AboutUs/PetBereavement/ContactingPBSS.asp

Hi Shirley
Sorry to hear how awful you still feel,
Its a year last christmas eve since I lost Inga and not a day goes by without thinking of her.
People on here do understand and if Its any help I,ll be at Barrow show in March if you need to talk and probably at the local agriculturals if they don,t get cancelled again..
I just wanted you to know you,re not alone and if you want to pm me do.
Take care Sharon x

thanks everyone for your very supportive posts, means a lot to me to know there are people out there that i can relate to & express my feelings to without being called stupid,

i appreciate all the support that i have recieved from each & everyone of you

thank you xxxx
   shirley

> no-one truely understands apart from us dog lovers

Shirley, I've felt your pain too.  I lost a dog some years back.  I had bred him myself, and it was the first time that I'd owned a dog from day one.  He was an old guy when I lost him, and I had so much difficulty getting people to understand that I felt actual pain at his loss.  As if my heart was breaking.  Nobody on CD will say go get a life - my thoughts are with you.

You should never feel stupid about this, but I know what you mean - when I go on about my dogs, my friends who don't have dogs really dont understand and probably think I'm a bit barking (no pun intended )

Tucker sounded fabulous and I am sure he is happy where he is now, as you say he's free from pain. I hope you start to feel better soon, my thoughts are with you

xx