Hi everyone,

As lots of you know i lost my darling abbey in sept last year at just 13 months and took losing her very hard indeed.

I just wanted to wish my babygirl a happy birthday wherever she is, she would have been just 2 years old on friday 7th august, sadly i still regret my decision and wish i could bring her back to me and try the surgery, but i cant and i have to deal with this everyday.
I miss her soo much and have still shed a tear everynight when i kiss her photo by my bed.

She was my 'Big Pudding' and she meant the world to me.

So big kisses to you darling and we will light the house with candles tommorrow, love you more than words can say and think of you 'Pudd' every single day xxx

Don't feel too sad, your pudding is ok now,  it's just you that feels bad she doesn't, she's bouncing about somewhere, have happy thoughts of her 

{{{{  hugs  }}}}

I Stood By Your Bed 
  
  I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying, You found it hard to sleep.

I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."

I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times your hands reached out to me.

I was with you at the shops today, your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.

I was with you at my grave today, you tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you that I'm not lying there.

I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said "It's me."

You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know that I was standing there.

It's possible for me to be so near you every day.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."

You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
In the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.

The day is almost over... I smile and watch you yawning
And say, "Goodnight, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."

And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.

I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out... then come home to be with me.

-- Author Unknown

Anniversaries are always hard, especially the first ones, but Abbey will be running free at the bridge looking down on you wanting you to be happy, you made the best decision for her at the time, she is no longer in pain, and she will be forever in your heart xx

thank you all for your kind messages, her birthday was a very hard day....though it is also the anniversary of my losing her next month which i know will be awful, the first year is the hardest i think. i miss her so much still

this poem made my eyes water. so moving, just reminds me my boy is getting on and his day will come one day. I'm sorry you lost your baby so young it is tragic. Don't feel guilty though her pain is over and that's what counts in the long run.

xx

My heart is with you as at the same time I lost my Holly of 22mths.. we were and are still grieving and now loosing her mum yesterday just think how happy they all are playing together and free of all illnessess

Hi Jan,
I remember your tragic loss of Holly and i am so sorry you have now lost her mum too.
It is best to think of all the happy times,but sometimes that is so hard when you are so grief stricken.

I dont think there is anything quite like losing a youngster as you just cant seem to make any sense of it all.

I hope they are all playing and are happy and painfree wherever they are, we will of course always love them dearly

My thoughts are with you at what must be a very sad time for you too x