Fern was my first dog, who I got 12 years ago this year.
She was an ex racing grey hound.
I was only 18 when I got her and had a very small baby. I tried and tried to get her house trained, fed her food for sensative stomachs, but what ever I did she still poohed like Mr Whippy ice cream And was always whey to thin even for a grey hound even tho she ate and ate.
But I am also not 100% sure my ex husband didnt uysed to beat her as well
I had her put to sleep in January 1997 After only having her for 18 months.
I still feel so guilty about this, as with hindsight, and seeing the way Gemma and my youngest son came on leaps and bounds after I left my husband, if I had her after I had left him, Fern would have lived a long happy life
I am sure her stomach was down to stress
Fern, I hope you are at the bridge waiting for me so I can say sorry for all you went through and the fact I had you PTS and not kicked my husband out.
Run free fern, I hope to see you again one day to say sorry and give you a cuddle.
Lea
xxxx

Oh Lea Don't beat yourself up.  With the benefit of hindsight, there are probably a lot of things that many of us would like to have done differently and you did what you thought was best at that time.  That's all any of us can do as none of us can forsee what is around the corner.

Fern will be waiting for you.

{{{HUGS}}}

Jules xx

Lea - you did the best you could for your dog - and hindsight is a wonderful thing but is just that, hindsight. We often have to make decisions based on what we know at the time and that is all one can ever do

aww Lea

I've made a few 'doggie' mistakes myself, so I know how you feel
Like Harley said, hindsight is a wonderful thing.
{{hugs}}

Lea you did what you thought was best for Fern at the time, like the others have said 'hindsight is just hindsight', and there are not many of us who haven't made huge doggie mistakes ourselves    You loved Fern, she knew that and you did what was right at the time.
Don't beat yourself up, she'll be running free at the bridge - hopefully she will have met up with Spangler
Maria x

Lea,
Like so many others... we all make mistake's and it sounds like you had a really tough time..
You did what was right for you and fern at the time

Fern will be resting in peace

Much love
Donna x
(and charliex)

Bless you Lea, and bless Fern too. Nobody's perfect, we all have to do what seems best or right at the time, and never know what's around the corner. Maybe you saved her from your ex doing something worse to her. Hope you're enjoying Rainbow Bridge Fern xx

im sorry you feel like that, i understand your remorse but it cant change anything, try to remember the good times.

Oh you silly sausage...c'mere!!! {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
Like us...she knows...the wonderful friend and owner you were and are...... x

It's so sad that you feel this way. You can't know that things would or wouldn't have been different. Please don't beat yourself up over it, it's so hard just missing them without guilt and anguish added on. You did what you thought was right, and more importantly you did it out of love. Thats the best anyone can do.
kat

I hope she will be waiting for me at the bridge, and will forgive me for what she was put through.
Gemma was also put through alot and a very difficult dog until I left him, and is now a wonderful dog. So I know he caused alot of mental problems with the animals. 
I hope she will forgive me, and hope, as I think he will go first, she will wait for me and not go over with him
I know hindsight is a great thing, but it is one of my biggest regrets!!!1
Knowing Gemma is coming up to 10 in a few weeks means Fern has been gone 10 years and may still have been alive aged 13
Why cant we click our fingers and make everything ok with our animals??????
lea.

We can only do what we think is right at the time Lea. I don't think there's a person alive who doesn't have some 20:20 hindsight regrets. She's a dog, of course she'll forgive you.